I am..

i am so selfish. i always hope for something more than what is enough.
i thought i will always get what i want because i do get what i want.
i am a thoughtful person. i will always think what happened in the past and what will happened in the future.
and its hard for me to forget. my memories are built to remember events. not to remember words.
i always regret over something or the paths i choose before. but in the end, i know those that i've chose actually are the best fate for me. and its hard to forget the past.
i not a happy person, and i can't pretend that i'm happy with life, happy with everything, but i do wish to be happy. so please make me happy.
i don't satisfy with what i have. i always forget the word "appreciate". but i do appreciate if u appreciate me.
i can't keep rules to myself. i fail at keeping law straight. but i do want you to follow rules that i follow.
i am a big lier. i do lies to everyone. i even lies to myself. but i can't accept a lie.
i know i always make promises that i can't keep. but frankly i've tried to keep it.
i have a bad temper. sometimes i can't control myself. can u take over me?
i do torture people feelings when i think they deserve it. but it happened on both side. mine and yours.
i am so stubborn. i want to be the only one who set things. but i do want u to set things too.
i don't trust people. my thought always clouded my judgement. it's my biggest problem.
i always wish that everyone is like me. but i do respect the differences.
i always judge people from their action not from sweet talk.
i always think that what i've gave is enough. Sacrifices which never are meaningful but painful for me.
its hard for me to admit my fault and say sorry, but i always want people to do those for me.
i dont blame something on one side. i take it as my fault.
i am based on my mood as it is myself.
a simple matter for someone is a big matter for me. i always over-care on small things.
i am a "scientific" person. whatever problems will need an explaination. and i do explain briefly, i hope, if i'm the problem.
i am sinfull and i've done much.
i hate to be alone. i always keep people with me.
i do act the wrong way than what i rightfully want.
i think i'm matured enough to stand on my feet.
i do care about others. its just my nature. is isn't my fault to care.
i sometimes think that i am too kind, but i am not pious.
i always wish i wasn't born into this world as i mostly feel the hard time.
i do gave people time, and i dont usually give extra time but i do when i need it too.
i am the way that i am. and this were all that makes me who i am?

Massival Core Event

Marjinal - Negeri Ngeri

Requested by a friend to tab out this song:


Marjinal - Negeri Ngeri


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Ganyang Malaysia?

When surfing through myspace.com, I have found this:

Salam Kebangsaan Untuk Seluruh Pemuda-Pemudi Republik Indonesia dimanapun berada, baik yang sedang berada diantara Sabang Sampai Merauke atau yang sedang berada diManca Negara. Salam Persaudaraan, Jangan kita biarkan negara manapun untuk mengusik aset kebudayaan kita, karena bagaimanapun itu adalah milik negara kita yang harus kita pertahankan. Cinta Tanah Air Sebagian Dari Iman.... Satu Nusa Satu Bangsa Satu Bahasa Kita

Malingsia Tidak Beretika
Sampaikan ke semua tenaga kerja Indonesia terutama yang bekerja di MALINGSIA agar :
1. Tidak memberikan resep makanan Asli Indonesia ke Orang orang MALINGSIA.
2.Jangan menyumbangkan tarian atau apapun yang berbau budaya asli Indonesia pada orang MALINGSIA.
3. Jangan bermain musik Tradisional Indonesia Pada Orang MALINGSIA.
Kita semua telah tau bahwa Negara satu itu adalah NEGARA TAK BERETIKA, NEGARA PLAGIAT MURNI Negara tanpa kreativitas, tak mau dan tak mampu menciptakan karya, Jadi mulai saat ini sebaiknya kita berhati hati menyajikan sesuatu yang asli budaya Indonesia pada negara MALINGSIA dan mari sejak sekarang sebut negara itu dengan sebutan MALINGSIA bukan MALAYSIA, Berapa banyak budaya Indonesia direbut? Masih tegakah budaya kita di Maling?




Panggilan Indon adalah Pelecehan Terhadap Indonesia
Indon adalah potongan kata yang ditujukan untuk memanggil orang Indonesia di kalangan warga Malaysia. Secara sepintas mungkin kita tidak akan marah jikalau dipanggil dengan istilah itu. Tetapi akan menjadi berbeda bagi orang Indonesia yang mengetahuinya. Sebab istilah itu dinilai dan memang adalah istilah yang kurang baik untuk Indonesia bagi Malaysia alias Malingsia.
Istilah “Indon” awalnya digunakan media-media Malingsia untuk menyebut Indonesia seperti : “Mafia Indon Mengganas” , “PRT Indon Menculik Anak” dan sebagainya. Akhirnya, persepsi orang terhadap “Indon” tidak lagi bagus (atau setidaknya netral) melainkan jelek. Seorang teman pernah bercerita, “Indon” artinya mirip “Preman” di sini. Anak yang nakal akan dimarahi, “Mau jadi apa kamu nanti? Mau jadi indon?” Tapi tetap, menolak kata “Indon” sebab ia berkonotasi kriminal dan buruk adalah sebuah langkah aneh. Pertama, kata “Indon” tidak berarti apa-apa. Sepanjang kata itu tidak ring a bell di kepala saya, saya sih santai saja. Ini sama seperti kita dipanggil “xeslgh@%sd;ai”. Tak ada arti, mana bisa ada konotasi.

Sumber : Berkala ITB ; Judul : “Indon (esia!)”

Intinya dari artikel itu, adalah menganggap biasa panggilan ini, hanya perkara konotasi saja. Makna konotatif. Selesai. Dan sayang seribu sayang, kolom komentar ditutup. Oke, saya tidak akan membahas orang Indonesia macam penulis di artikel itu yang membiarkan bangsanya sendiri direndahkan dengan panggilan seperti itu. Terlepas dari masalah apakah itu makna negatif atau positif. Tapi buat saya pribadi, panggilan ini merendahkan. Men-cap jelek bangsa Indonesia dengan panggilan semau mereka. Silahkan gunakan fasilitas mesin pencari untuk melihat bagaimana kata indon ini digunakan oleh warga negara tetangga itu. Meskipun beberapa pakar bahasa menyatakan bahwa itu hanya pemenggalan kalimat biasa seperti yang kita lakukan sehari-hari. Namun saya melihat ada sebuah kebencian dan pelecehan di balik kata-kata itu. Sekali lagi, saya menganjurkan bagi anda untuk tidak menggunakan kata ini. Biarkan mereka saja yang berkelakuan demikian. Setidaknya kita bisa melihat dari ungkapan itu betapa rendah rasa menghargai terhadap sesama manusia yang ditunjukkan oleh mereka. Kalau kita masih menggunakan kata “indon” untuk menyebut orang Indonesia, apa bedanya kita dengan mereka? Memangnya susah ya menambahkan kata -esia dibelakang kata Indon? Saya cuma bilang, orang Indonesia jangan ikut-ikutan orang2 bodoh (Malingsia, alias malingsialan, alias malon) itu panggil Indon, ya!

Situs Malaysia Di-deface

Sebuah situs milik Pemerintah Johor, Malaysia, yang beralamat di www.johordt.gov.my berhasil di-deface oleh sekelompok hacker bernama blok_Und3r9round. Nampaknya hacker tersebut mengetahui lubang di situs ini, yang mengakibatkan berubahnya tampilan gambar yang memasang tengkorak yang sedang merobek bendera Malaysia. Tidak hanya itu saja, hacker juga menitipkan pesan yang berisi,"JANGAN KAU CURI BUDAYA KAMI !!! F**k You Malaysia !!!.

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This is a myspace/music account, and their activity also is supported by many racist bands!

The author sure knows how to influence teenagers by using music as the main media.

They even want to boycott Malaysia.

WTH is going to happen later if a sentiment like this is not stopped...

Malaysian doesn’t fuck the Indonesia, or its nation!

The author is just using the word “culture” to attract followers...

He claimed that Malaysia copy its culture from them?

Is Malaysian culture is really like their culture?

NO, absolutely not...

Malaysia already got its own, plus, with multiple races living peacefully,

Malay, Chinese, Indian and others...

Every Nation got its own identity...

Two Nation are the never the same...

All those Indonesian bands that are supporting this thing...

Don’t they listen to other bands?

I am 110% sure that their influences also come from US, EU, Britain, others bands as well...

Do they think that they originate everything?

Are playing the same genre mean duplicating the songs, the sounds?

NO!

Certainly Malaysian is not into racism...

Malaysian bands never support racism...

We even invite our “friendly” Indonesian bands here...

Malaysian calls "Indon" just as a short form for "Indonesia"...

Is it really the word that is cause the bad reputation of Indonesian?

A name is a name, and what is making the impression is the attitude.

What happened are those crimes by Indonesian workers in Malaysia, creating bad reputation towards Indonesia...

Even if Malaysian is committing crimes there, Malaysia will also get bad reputations.

Certainly “Indon” doesn’t mean something bad...

It got no meaning, even the Indonesian claimed:

“Ini sama seperti kita dipanggil ‘xeslgh@%sd;ai’. Tak ada arti, mana bisa ada konotasi.”

And look at what they call Malaysia...

“Malingsia”? “Malangsia”? “Malangsial”?

Why is with that word "malang" and "sial"?

Absolutely putting a bad “label” towards Malaysia

And if you watch TV in Malaysia, almost all of the times got Indonesian dramas,

What kind of culture does Indonesian have?

Personally, I don’t even know what culture the Indonesian has even if I watch them...

Have they understood the words “share”?

Indonesian does not want to share culture?

There is no use of the culture if it is not spread,

Malaysian will always proud if our culture is shown somewhere else...

It proves our existence!

Have they seen in Malaysia, or through our media that we burn Indonesia flag?

They won’t find it... but then what happened there?

They already burn down our flag!

There are certainly a lot of Indonesian here, and don't we treat them right?

Of course, maybe minor will treat their worker badly, but in this case it's minor...

And these types of people don't treat them like that just because they are Indonesian...

Do they think this is the best way?

Just look at what happened in their country...

It all starts from this "Racism" shit!

Please, learn to respect others, if you want some back...

I think the one who create this surely don't have a proper education,

Be more realistic!

You really don't know what it’s like here, in Malaysia...

I know out there many better Indonesian know how to respect others, but I afraid that just by small sentiment like this can harm our relationship with their country, our neighbor.

Hope this site will be closed or blocked soon!

http://www.myspace.com/pasukanantimalingsia

A Guitar Recipies! (Part 1)

I've learned a lot of techniques online and never properly go to music classes, so i'm not that great as professional guitarist and as i spend most of my time in front of my computer, holding my girls in my hands, i've found that there are several things (i prefer rules) to achieve perfection in guitar playing ;p

Enough intro already, these are the list of thing that i keep in my mind :


1. Always practice with metronome!

This one is the most important rules to master with the tempo..In case u don't know what is a metronome, it is the annoying sound indicating the beats and counted as beats per minutes (bpm).
Even if u can shred fast but u can't keep up with the tempos, then u already lose ;p
Set the metronome with a slower bpm, maybe 100 or something, then when u think u are ready change it to 110,120,130,140 and so on... so later u will find that u'r timing with the beats are perfect or almost perfect.


2. Check u'r guitar tuning before starts playing!

Okay, maybe this is not that important... but looks if ur guitar does not sounds right u won't probably satisfied with your guitar playing, so for me this is important to archive "sensation". Even a locked neck guitar will run out of tune if we play a lot with whammy bar, or even when we bend the string. So, always make sure u'r guitar stays in tune every time u play. Perfect tune = pleasurement to ears~


3. Finger practice!

Start playing with finger exercises, maybe a couple of hard-to-archive licks or something complicated that apply a good combination of fingers, so that the fingers is ready to play. Finger practice is also crucial for fingers positioning on the fretboard and to increase ur ability to play faster. Make sure all ur fingers are "alive" :p


4. Master Muting!

Muting can reduce or eliminate the noise u produce especially when u r dealing with electric guitar with distortion.

There are two types of muting, string muting and palm muting. Palm muting is produced when u put ur palm softly on the bridge, it not totally mute but produce a "nice" heavy sound. This method is commonly used in some rock, most of metal and hardcore genres. Another one is string muting, which is using the "unused" playing finger or fingers to absolutely mute the undesirable strings sound. This is important even when u play a chords, sweep picking, legato, arpeggios or even a single note!


5. Practice Picking!

Always remember that the way u pick or pluck the string will determine how a sounds will come out and how fast u can play the notes. There are differences in using a pick or pluck the guitar using a thumb. If u watch Steve Vai - Whispering A Prayer vids (of coz i'm his fan ;p), i hope u notices that in the early moment of the song he doesn't use pick but pluck with his thumb, to produce a more "mellow" and "soft" sounds. This depends on the "mood" u want to create.

There are lots of types for picking...
- Upstrokes and downstrokes (basic picking)
- String skipping
- Thrilling (i don't know if i spell this right ;p)
- Sweep picking
- Economic picking

Among all of this i think the hardest to master is the sweep picking. I will cover this in the part 2.

6. Practice scaling!

Scales is very important for lead playing..some of the guitarist may refuse to remember the scales or even complaining it's so hard to remember the scales.

My advice :

-Only remember the basic ones, like major, minor, and pentatonic, maybe blues scale.
-Create ur own scales!

Why some guitarist are able to memorize thousands of notes when he plays?
Because he is the one that compose the notes! You can compose ur own scales, but also know when to use ur composed scales. There is no right way to use the scaling, those scales function are only as reference points, as long as the notes goes with the flow of the song. In the end u may notice that ur finger will "automatically" move to the right notes when u play! ;p

7. Use your ears!

Don't always use tabs to find songs u wanna play, instead find it urself. Maybe it's hard for newbies but gradually u will become good enough to figure out notes just by listening to the song. This is also important when ur r in guitar duel, because u need to improvise the opponent licks just by hearing! Hearing is the most power weapon for guitarist ;p

Well, i think it's enough for the Part 1, since i got no more time left to spend. Btw, i'm having exam the next one hour.. What? Just one hour left before the exam starts!
See ya later!
^^

Final Project "Sound of Serenity" review

Last week is the worst week ever! I've been so busy preparing for the presentation boards and model for my final 1st year architecture project : Working Habitat. Just like the name, i need to design a house for both residential purpose and the workspace. Let me explain about it~

My client is a musician, quite famous for his percussion skill, which is Steve Thornton, so i must design a house related to music. At first i think i wanna use "Rhythm" as the concept, but a lot of designs already used this to relate with music.. so it's to common. Then I thought of "Fusion" as the concept since Thornton used to mix his native and classical percussion sounds with the modern songs, like rap or rock. So i guess it will be the best concept, but in the end, I've decided to use "The Sound of Serenity" concept.

The Sound of Serenity means the sound of calmness and tranquility. Since Thornton is now with the Raihan, a nasyid group, I think this concept has a good relation with his music. Creating songs which are religional and for God, this songs will take him to calmness and tranqullity, as well as he needs to be in serenity for ideas and inspiration. So my design need to express the serenity quality.

The propose site is located near the Kg. Sungai Penchala, and it is situated on the far end of the residential area there, given a very special view of the cliff. But this also means that the site have only one access to it which is from the north. Into the site is a running stream of cold water from the uphill on the north, which i need to think of as water feature.

I need to totally appreciate the good view of the cliff so i've decided to use a long rectangular design with the most face are viewing the cliff. Not to forget the swimming pool, wooden deck and veranda's must also face the cliff.

My design also have a running water under the living room floor, which automatically create an axis for the house. The running water will function to give "charm" the interior of the living room as well as the sound of nature produce by the water streams will create calming effect for the mind.

For privacy, all the 4 bedrooms and master's bedroom are on the first floor, together with the family living room and study room. The ground floor will be for the public and semi-public area only. The circulation will be like an Octave, the music theory of from c, d, e, f, g, a, b, and back to the c note as the path will connect the spaces in circle and back to the datum, the living room as a place for family reunion. The basement will give a sound insulation very well for the jamming and recording studios, and have Thornton's achievement gallery. Not to forget the running water will also generate electric power in a generator room there. From the master bedroom, client will be able to connected to the office and the studios with a lift.

The living, dining and guest room will have the access to the swimming pool as the best view is from there. The jamming studio is located under a fish pond, which will give quite unique view from the jamming studio ceiling into the pond as well as the light effect on the floor will be through the water.

Here are some pictures of my design :

SOUND OF SERENITY



FRONT PERSPECTIVE

REAR PERSPECTIVE

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The lecturer's comments during the final presentation are more on the presentation boards. I don't label the north point on the location plan and the ground floor well. Also the orientation of the toilets for the rooms, some are just minimizing the good view. Also about the angle of the roof which i totally have no clue. Design development, which is a piano also have nothing to do with percussionist, Steve Thornton. But i guess it's okay because piano is very symbolic to music and the serenity sound it produce.

I've learned a lot from this final presentation. First impression is important. My hair is just too long and even the first question they asked is about my long hair~
I must also be careful with the details on the boards, especially the orientation of the drawings with the north point.

I'm feeling so "down" for my presentation since their way of criticism really are "radical". I also realize that I've become the point of attraction for everyone who heard the loud scolding voice. I think it's better if I get used to it before my career starts someday. My effort on making the model is also useless since they not even take a look at it. Quite disappointing.

On the bright side, life is all about experience. I hope that I will be much better for the next year.
Still a long journey for me to give up architecture. I need to fix myself first. And i wonder what will happen if i don't have my matric card anymore? =p
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Words for the Roses

i feel so alone...
maybe i am broke...
pretending to care...
my life is damned...
all my act is evils...
they will haunt me forever...
all the greed...
make me high...
turns to be imaginative...
practicing jokes...
the time is killing...
i am trying to appreciate life...
don't be mad...
it is nothing...
maybe i am too obsess...
with the prime...
the beautiful queen...
all inside is a black rose...
with the dark gloomy scent...
covered under the thorn...
maybe it is ugly...
yet so valuable...
and maybe that is all i wish...
crossing as the x...
all for you...
in an endless zone...
-s o x-